Britney Spears shared a cryptic and emotional Instagram post over the weekend, talking about pain, “darkness,” and personal growth.

Britney posted a new dancing video Saturday, wearing a leopard print bodysuit and black heels while dancing to Adele’s “Send My Love (To Your New Lover)” with a long caption filled with talk of reflection and hardship.

Britney wrote that she’s been doing a lot of thinking lately, saying tough experiences can lead to growth and “good things.” She talked about expressing emotions honestly, even if it feels “childish” or “silly,” and encouraged keeping the vulnerable “child within” alive during difficult times.

Then she abruptly switched topics, joking about eating way too much on Thanksgiving and admitting she “cheated” on her diet but loved every minute of it.